Drowning Again

I’ve written, tweeted, etc before about feeling like I am drowning and I am back there. This whole move has massively damaged my motivation, schedule, and routine. I am still incredibly grateful. We are in a nicer place (overall), in a nicer neighborhood, spending less money, and just a down right better situation. However when […]

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Support

I am not sure if I will share this after writing it out as it delves into some fairly private matters. Many years ago after my suicide attempt, I was diagnosed manic-depressive with extreme depressive tendencies (basically I have depression on top of bi-polar in the easiest to understand sense). Years later my anxiety was […]

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Discouraged

I wrote a short blog post about how discouraged I’ve been lately. It was self indulgent and mostly about how I felt I was barely holding my grip from slipping into another dark spell. It was true, but I realized it was also unhelpful. I am discouraged. I am not writing as much or as […]

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Little Steps that I Deserve to Celebrate

I often times find myself so focused on what I haven’t done, while completely ignoring the improvements I am making. Progress takes time, I am not able to change my life as easy as flipping a switch. I would like to take this time to highlight things I simply don’t pat myself on the back […]

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The Importance of Proper Diagnosis

As with all of my mental health posts I want to preface this with, I am not a mental health professional. My mental health posts are based on my own personal experience. I am happy to share that experience and I hope it helps people. However no blog is a replacement for real work with […]

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Expressing My Needs

One of the biggest things I have always struggled with in terms of mental health is not asking for/stating what I need. I, like all human beings, can be selfish, but I don’t like to. I am easily prone to guilt and pressure. The end result is I rarely am honest about what I need […]

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Dead Brain Days

I don’t know if anyone else has experienced this, but lately I’ve been getting a lot of what I term “dead brain days”. I find it impossible to write because I lack inspiration or motivation. I find little enjoyment in things that I normally like. It’s hard for me to talk to people because I […]

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The Trouble with Giving Advice

Let me preface this blog by saying that I am in no way discouraging people from talking to others about mental illness, or even giving advice. Please read the full thing and take it for what it is rather than assuming. On to the blog I have noticed lately a large number of people on […]

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Comparing Myself to Others

One of the worst traits about myself is my toxic, almost obsessive, need to compare myself to others. The other day, for no reason at all, I decided to look up the age of a woman that I respect. I discovered she is almost exactly a year older than me. My reaction to this was […]

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Self Defeat

Many months ago I published a blog post about wanting to be more positive. I wanted to stop assuming the worst about people. I wanted to respond to people with a more positive attitude (even when they were being the worst). I wanted to respond with understanding and education instead of judgment and anger. Something […]

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