Fake It Till You Make It

Many years ago, my therapist at the time gave me some advice. It was during one of my limbo stages with depression. Things weren’t horrible, but they weren’t great either. Slightly depressed but not in one of my worst states. I talked about those times being challenging to get over. She told me that sometimes […]

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Cycles

In my continuing journey to finally get my mental health struggles the hell together, I’ve been thinking a lot about cycles. More specifically the unhealthy cycles that I have let rule my life for far longer than I should have. These cycles are both large and small. The small ones tend to be related to […]

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Instant Gratification

So I’ve recently been working on some new methods for treating my anxiety and depression, and for the most part, they are working. They are also helping with lifestyle changes as well, which is super important for me. However, there is a degree of impatience that I find myself struggling with. I am an instant […]

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Mental Health Goals

I’ve been doing a lot of posts lately about my struggles with mental health and what I am doing and hoping to do to get to a better place. I thought I would lay out some goals I have for my overall mental health and things I am striving for. Some of these I have […]

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2018: The Bad, The Good, The Ugly Truths

So I’ve made no secret of the fact that this was a bad year for me. As 2018 wraps up I want to discuss what went wrong, what went right, and some ugly truths moving forward. The Bad -My anxiety has hit an all-time high, and my depression has gotten worse. I also allowed both […]

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Some Harsh Truths Going into 2019

So this might seem early yet as there is still a month and a half left of this year, but I’ve been thinking about this now so wanted to get some thoughts out while they were fresh. 2018 was a bad year for me. I went in thinking I was going to go guns blazing, […]

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Self-Care

This is not the first time I’ve talked about this subject, and as always with my mental health posts, I am not a mental health professional. However, I wanted to discuss the glamorized version of self-care we often see on the internet and why it’s not always self-care. One of the great things with the […]

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Personal Resolution: No More Saying “I’m Too Old”

Personal Resolution: No More Saying “I’m Too Old” Once again today the words “I’m too old for” were said by me. This has been a consistent problem with me for many years. The harsh reality is I am likely too old for some things I wanted to try in my life, but not most of […]

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Exhausted

For the last… several months now, I have just felt so exhausted. Emotionally, mentally, and it’s bleeding through into physically as well. I want to make changes, to be more productive, to do better, but I just feel so drained. Like every day merely waking up and getting out of bed is just too much […]

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What Depression is Like: How I Feel

Someone (who will remain unidentified) asked me to help explain depression to a loved one, and I was hesitant. It’s not that I lacked the desire to help them, but rather that I felt I lacked the expertise. First problem I see is that depression is different for each person, there are a few shared […]

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