Another Lockdown Update

It’s been another couple of weeks since I checked in. Since my last post, things have been mixed. I found some good at-home workouts and have been putting more activity back into my schedule. I have been writing a little more with the blog, although there is still a lot of room for improvement there. […]

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Lockdown Check-In

So I recently wrote a post where I admitted to having a hard time with everything going on. I also said I wanted to be more honest and open about my feelings. So I thought I would do a quick update of how I am doing. Emotionally I am in a better place than I […]

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Getting It All Out

After Ben left for his first shift at the hospital since the official state lockdown started (we had been doing our own self-isolation before), I sat down on our bed and just started crying. It happened so quickly and just rushed out. I completely panicked our dogs because it was no soft tears on the […]

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Punishing Myself

So over the years, I have really struggled with my weight. It’s been a lot of things- the fact that I did not develop good habits when I was younger (if I could give one piece of advice it would be, start learning to work out and eat well before you have to). There was […]

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The Now More Attitude

So the idea of this blog post was inspired by a conversation I had with Ben via text (while he was at work). I texted him to inform him that I had completed my daily word goal, but no more. Ben texted back to say, “that’s good,” to which I immediately argued that it wasn’t […]

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Listening to Myself

The other week I was having a difficult time. I couldn’t stay focused on anything. I was grumpy and easily pushed into anger. I felt stressed and overwhelmed. I just couldn’t get myself grounded to take care of what I needed to. And I completely ignored it all until I had a mini-breakdown and just […]

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Fighting Against Myself

It has been a while since I have done a post about my mental health. I have been thinking that I should really be trying to do them more frequently. I am not sure how much readers like them (or dislike them), but I think it helps me to get the feelings out and share […]

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Trying to Fill My Days

There are a lot of different things I do to combat the issues with my mental health. Some of them I have talked about once or twice, some many times, some I have kept private. Currently, one of the ones I am trying is just filling my days. When I stop, it allows me to […]

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Low Anxiety Days

So a few weeks ago, as I mentioned, I was pretty bad. I started getting better and went into a “fake it until you make it” mode. Now I am doing much better, and I have been trying to get the most out of it. Low anxiety days are not entirely uncommon for me, but […]

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Fake It Till You Make It

Many years ago, my therapist at the time gave me some advice. It was during one of my limbo stages with depression. Things weren’t horrible, but they weren’t great either. Slightly depressed but not in one of my worst states. I talked about those times being challenging to get over. She told me that sometimes […]

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