It’s been another couple of weeks since I checked in. Since my last post, things have been mixed. I found some good at-home workouts and have been putting more activity back into my schedule. I have been writing a little more with the blog, although there is still a lot of room for improvement there. My creative writing is still entirely stalled, and I need … Continue reading Another Lockdown Update

So I recently wrote a post where I admitted to having a hard time with everything going on. I also said I wanted to be more honest and open about my feelings. So I thought I would do a quick update of how I am doing. Emotionally I am in a better place than I was when I wrote the post. Of course, my husband … Continue reading Lockdown Check-In

After Ben left for his first shift at the hospital since the official state lockdown started (we had been doing our own self-isolation before), I sat down on our bed and just started crying. It happened so quickly and just rushed out. I completely panicked our dogs because it was no soft tears on the cheek, but loud sobs. Before you worry too much, I … Continue reading Getting It All Out

So over the years, I have really struggled with my weight. It’s been a lot of things- the fact that I did not develop good habits when I was younger (if I could give one piece of advice it would be, start learning to work out and eat well before you have to). There was self-medicating with drinking, which never helps. Medicines for my mental … Continue reading Punishing Myself

So the idea of this blog post was inspired by a conversation I had with Ben via text (while he was at work). I texted him to inform him that I had completed my daily word goal, but no more. Ben texted back to say, “that’s good,” to which I immediately argued that it wasn’t because I had just hit my goal but no more. … Continue reading The Now More Attitude

The other week I was having a difficult time. I couldn’t stay focused on anything. I was grumpy and easily pushed into anger. I felt stressed and overwhelmed. I just couldn’t get myself grounded to take care of what I needed to. And I completely ignored it all until I had a mini-breakdown and just snapped. The problem is I don’t listen to myself. I … Continue reading Listening to Myself

It has been a while since I have done a post about my mental health. I have been thinking that I should really be trying to do them more frequently. I am not sure how much readers like them (or dislike them), but I think it helps me to get the feelings out and share them. Something I have been thinking about a lot is … Continue reading Fighting Against Myself

There are a lot of different things I do to combat the issues with my mental health. Some of them I have talked about once or twice, some many times, some I have kept private. Currently, one of the ones I am trying is just filling my days. When I stop, it allows me to think, when I think I get down on myself, when … Continue reading Trying to Fill My Days

So a few weeks ago, as I mentioned, I was pretty bad. I started getting better and went into a “fake it until you make it” mode. Now I am doing much better, and I have been trying to get the most out of it. Low anxiety days are not entirely uncommon for me, but rare enough that it makes a huge difference, especially coming … Continue reading Low Anxiety Days