Since the holidays ended, I have had a rather difficult time fully bouncing back. It’s not that I have done nothing, that’s not the case. I have started streaming again with more consistency. My writing routine is slowly bouncing back. But I still feel like I am treading water, or stuck in a rut. It has only been around a month since Christmas, but I feel like several months have passed, yet at the same time only a few days.
I am not entirely sure what it is, only that my head hasn’t gotten back on fully straight since the holidays ended, and I don’t know where to go or what to do from here.
It might have been because I was sick right after, so what was a fun few weeks off turned into longer than I meant (and a lot of not fun).
Or maybe I just haven’t driven myself fully back into my routine.
Or just standard fog that sometimes happens as a person that struggles with mental health.
I am not sure what it is, I only know that I feel stuck and I don’t want to anymore. I want more productivity, more enjoyment of things, more feeling like I am back to tackling life and not simply in a half state between it and “holiday mode.”
I feel like I need a bit of a shock to my system, but I don’t know what it might be. Or maybe I just need to focus more and give it time.
Either way, I am stuck in a bit of a rut.
And this post is kind of reflective of that.
Do you have any things you like to do when you are struggling like this? Not fully able to commit to your routine and schedule but not really in vacation mode, either?