Before I get any comments “writer’s block is not real,” yes it is. It is real the same way that being demotivated and struggling with any job is real. I know it’s often used as an excuse just not to write, but it is still real.

Now that, that is out of the way.

I feel stuck, horribly so, with my writing. I challenged myself to finish one project before I moved on, but that project is getting no movement. Every time I go to edit I hate it and hate my writing even more. I realized a few weeks ago that maybe I needed to allow myself to flex my creative muscles and work on other things, but no matter how I try I can’t.

It’s almost painful how disconnected from myself and my writing I have become. My creative writing is stagnant, and even my blog writing is struggling. I hate it. It’s brought me to tears at certain points. I just want to work again, and I want to work consistently.

I know that the more I stress about it, the harder it will be too. These negative thoughts and feeling like I will never get it back will only make it harder to get it back. It’s a vicious cycle, and one I feel forced into.

I don’t know if I should relax and pull some of my timed goals off of myself.

I don’t know if I should just force myself to sit down and just try harder.

I don’t know if there is a balance between the two.

I just know I can’t do this anymore.

I just want to WRITE.

I just want to make this happen.

I just want to work