Lately I’ve been noticing a disturbing trend. I am ashamed to say it’s one that has been impacting me for awhile, despite my just now realizing it. I have been writing fast, not well, fast. It has become a bragging point to me that I can quickly turn out posts for my sites, and cram in writing blocks when I can. The problem is I have been completely dissatisfied with my content. I am writing a lot, but I am not sure I like what I have written. There have been a few short bursts where I feel my old self coming back. Chapters that I truly love, pieces that I can really get behind, for the most part I have been rather… unhappy. There is something to be said for getting to a point where you can write quickly. Where flow is easier to find, and having a short turn around is great. There is also something to be said for getting caught in a trap, where you only care about how much you complete not how happy you are with it.
It’s been hard, this last few weeks I have gotten a lot about myself in order again. However I still feel I am struggling the most in the one area that means so much to me. Trying to again find my inspiration and drive, trying to balance writing fast and writing well, trying to push myself without breaking myself.
I have considered that it is time for me to rethink a few of my writing projects, fix my approach. Use this knowledge to help me to reshape how I write in the future.